15.3.09

me: i wish i wasnt so affected by travel and could just float around and didnt have such a heavy bag and wasnt so obssesed with maintaining some kind of creative production/// ha
oliver: wow yes i hear you you could ditch a bunch of stuff
i too though, have real trouble wit travel you have to compromise a lot of what is otherwise really fundamentally important
me: TRAVEL ONLY SHOWS YOU THE DIFFERENCES AND STAYING STILL SHOWS YOU THE CHANGES (andy goldsworthy)
it is more profound to stay still and be apart of and watch the changes.
oliver: yeh perhaps but being in other places, be it for a long time or a short time, does wonders for your perspective
i can really feel different things stir inside of me when i am in other places
me: yes and i think to be able to stay still and actually notice and appreciate the subtlesness of changes you need to be very awake... and sometimes travel can awaken you.
oliver: yeah i think thats true haha, i also need travel to help me deal with the grass is greener ..... myth?
like, to be able to make informed decisions about the relevance and reverance-worthiness of exotic places on the other side of the world - which is hard to do if you dont actually go there
me: yes, so true, its funny when you go somewhere thats hyped up
and you see some art or perf and your like yes. its okay. but not amazing. and i know people that are doing things just as / if not more interesting

oliver: and its the same or not as good as at home
me: yes exactly, i really find that a lot.
oliver: we've been talking about this lately
there is this expectation that there is a while world of crazy amazing people doing ridiculous amazing things but that world is actually ours,
its just us
11:40 AM oliver: things are more tangible than one allows oneself to
think
or something